But just recently, I have realised and listened to what a lot of people have said.. And, I don't think I can be that strong woman anymore. I've tried so hard to keep it going, even to the point of denying sleep and food to prove to myself how strong I was.
Today, after having a big night in the city, I sat at Flinders Street station for 3 hours, crying and reassuring everyone who asked me if "I was okay?" that "I was fine, I'm always fine, thanks."
I eventually jumped on the train and headed back towards Frankston, in hope that my parents would let me back into their lives, that they could see what state I was in, and realise that I finally agreed to getting help.
After walking the whole way from Frankston station to their house, (about 16kms), I arrived at their house and walked in, I ran to my mum and hugged her, not just hugged her, I mean almost suffocated her - That's how much I wanted her to love me again. I don't know if many people have been in a situation like that before, but I can tell you that just thinking about it now breaks my heart.
After pouring my heart out to my mother apologising for everything that I'd done this year, she cried with me and comforted me, it felt good just to have her arms around me for the first time in a week. That moment was quickly destroyed when my father told me to leave and get out - To which I was speechless, I thought they were going to say yes to me coming back into their home, so my heart was shattered into a million pieces when I heard those two words "GET OUT", although I'm sure they could relate because that's how they probably felt when I released the photo's.
I had one place I could go to stay tonight, and that was my best friends parents house. They're great people, and have supported me from the start - They have never judged me. I respect them immensely for that.
So, now I sit here on the computer, after reading Derryn Hinch's latest blog (Read Here), and I definitely respect that man, Ive never met him, but after reading his last few blog posts, it quite easy to see that he is catching onto what the real truth is. He is raising alot of questions that haven't been answered before, and more to the point - Has made the connection that original story is the real problem.
A lot of you thought this was all over in mid May-June, but I can tell you, when you hold on to so many lies, there really is no ending until you crack one day and release them.
My point being, there was something illegal that occurred, in fact many things; But unfortunately at the time, I was a 16 year old girl, who was very vulnerable and could be intimidated by anyone.
I'll leave it at that, I'm just trying to say that I have been perceived very horribly in the media, and I think I would be judged differently when I tell my side of the story, but in the meantime, I think I'll leave those deceptive lies from St.Kilda in the Victorian Police's hands.
Thank-you to all of the supporters, and I hope that all of the haters haven't completely made their minds up yet.
-Kim, x x
@Its_K_Isabella
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I expect Kim took this path for revenge. A couple of naked pics, a bit of embarrassment, some jokes and it'd all be over. It's not, and I doubt she ever imagined these consequences. Not just the legal ones, or the online frenzy, but the personal toll that this takes.
Vilifying her just doesn't add anything. it doesn't help Kim, it doesn't help the players, it just makes you look nasty.
9pm? You're not in Melbourne then brenda?
@brenda
so why do i have to be fair?
Because that's the decent thing to do.
But if you don't have to be fair, you can't complain if others aren't fair to you.
I'm not aware of Kim admitting that Riewoldt didn't do anything to her. My understanding is that, according to her, he was dismissive of and offensive to her in Adelaide, calling her a slut. Whether that justifies publication of his picture is a different issue, but from her perspective I suspect that she came to see St Kilda as the enemy and that he was fair game as part of the enemy.
I still think that it would be prudent to reserve judgment about Kim and what happened to her. St Kilda and the AFL have a lot of questions to answer, many posed by Hinch in the links I posted previously. Curiously, they have gone off the air in the past few days when those questions have been posed, which the exact opposite of their energetic feeding of the news media when they were on the front foot against Kim.
Moreover, some Saints stalwarts have criticised the club's conduct and agreed with my view that understanding and compassion should be extended to Kim http://www.couriermail.com.au/ipad/greats-slam-st-kilda-over-scandal/story-fn6ck6f9-1225978194120 , which is consistent with public opinion in a newspaper survey. http://www.heraldsun.com.au/news/victoria/footy-scandal-girl-goes-to-hospital/story-e6frf7kx-1225978297874
The latter article also says:
Hawthorn president Jeff Kennett said he hoped St Kilda would reconsider its position on legal action.
Mr Kennett said there was a level of "hypocrisy" in how this case had been treated in comparison to the Lara Bingle nude photo scandal.
Mr Kennett said those responsible for photographing and distributing the image of Bingle had been excused, but attitudes changed when players were the subject of such conduct.
@blackmask
It's holidays....she's allowed to stay up late.
Now you're taking her side! ):
I agree with parent. You be fair because it's the decent thing to go. Because mistakes have been made, most likely on both sides of this mess. But that's done and can't be undone.
The players, they have their lawyers, they are adults, they have people around them.
Kim's 17, still at school, and by all accounts, very alone other than the people online.
brenda, you say your 17....you be fair because if it was you that's what you'd hope you had.
lol @parent
she's young, she needs support as well ;)
@blackmask
but maybe i am just nasty?
and i just chose 9pm as an example.
does it matter if im in melb or somewhere else?
@parent
Um wrong answer. Riewoldt being dismissive of her is exactly what he and all the players should have done.for gods sake one minute you kim fans are saying the players showed too much interest in a teenager of legal age.... now your saying its ok for her to ruin his private life because he was dismissive.
farrr out you cant have it oth ways.
and as for jeff kennett, hes just a fuckwit with no life.
and you have the right to say you believe we should reserve judgement of kim
well i say we should reserve judgement of Riewoldt and the other footy players.
theres a lot left to play out here, i wouldnt be putting all my cards on the table just yet
LOL@BLACKMASK
um kim isnt still at school. she finished year 12 at tafe if you believe her.
anywayz i dont need to talk anymore cos im famous now
@brenda
derrrr i said i was 17 not 7.
17 year olds dont go to bed at 9pm you know
I know. At 9 pm they're making themselves up for nightclubs and parties and gatherings which don't start until about the time such things were about to be closed in my day.
That's part of the problem, for Kim and her generation. They are introduced too soon to things they can't handle, and given distorted views of adult life on the way.
Listen to FM radio on the kids' stations and try not to be offended by the endless rap pap with its mysoginistic references to women as bitches and whores and the utterly offensive 'motherfucker' liberally sprinkled through this brain dead panorama of pointless vileness.
Listen to AM radio on dull and boring adult talkback, between the ads for impotence treatments with their unsubtle sexual innuendos as you're driving along the freeway with a kid who, even if you turn the radio off, sees a half acre sign for the same product adjacent to the freeway.
Combine that with the celebrity for celebrity's sake in brain dead shows like Big Brother where the turkey slapping incident would have put the offender in court in other cirucmstances.
We're continually giving our kids the message that bad public and private conduct isn't really bad at all. Indeed, it may make you famous, which is what a disturbing number of kids want to be.
I could go on with so many other examples of how we've lost the plot and popular culture bombards our children with vileness rather than wholesomeness, with the result that it's beyond parents to overcome this constant stream of degradation of women and humanity.
Then there's the internet porn routinely accessed by teenage boys. Much of it depicts aberrant sexual conduct, but the boys don't know that so they think that anal sex and threesomes and so on are normal.
Then there's sexting, and the endless cycling of those images by mobile phone and internet, and the condemnation and humiliation of the girls persuaded to provide those images to boys who are just going to use the girls up.
Just like Kim seems to have been used up by some St Kilda players.
It doesn't excuse the conduct by either gender, but it goes some way to explaining it.
If we view Kim's conduct in that light, the obvious question is: So what did she do that you wouldn't expect from a generation influenced by such material?
@brenda
well i say we should reserve judgement of Riewoldt and the other footy players.
theres a lot left to play out here, i wouldnt be putting all my cards on the table just yet
Agreed.
Which is why I think it's premature and unfair for people to attack Kim while ignoring the squalid actions of the adult footballers who exploited her.
I doubt we'll ever get the truth, because the wind is shifting and the silence from St Kilda and the AFL this week suggests that they are realising that a lot of people see them as bully boys beating up a kid who's been stupid but still exploited by adult footballers. They've handled this badly from the start and their recent legal assaults on Kim have backfired from a crisis management viewpoint. So they'll protect the brand by finding a way to shut her up, which will result in a confidential settlement where nobody can say anything.
Or Kim, or someone else who has some dirt, will throw a new grenade into the room which will derail things further.
@parent
or maybe SKFC and the AFL are just enjoying there christmas break?
im over this now
goodnite
@ brenda
or maybe SKFC and the AFL are just enjoying there christmas break?
I think we can be pretty sure they're not enjoying what's going on as a result of their consistent mismanagement of this issue.
Goodnight.
I think a bit might have been lost in translation here, but it just makes it an even better read.
However, the pictures were already widely circulated in cyberspace. Duthie even boast has 21 other images of rugby players at other clubs and also threatened to pass it on Monday (12/27/2010).
The incident infuriated the St Kilda captain Nick Riewoldt. That felt better because she was now nude photo spread come. He pleaded not know Duthie and do not know how the photo could be circulated.
According to Riewoldt, drawing himself taken a fellow club when they were vacationing in the U.S., last year. However, according to Riewoldt, he has asked his colleagues to delete the last picture on the spot. “When photographed, I was in unconscious condition and has asked for my picture deleted. This is really rubbish,” Riewoldt said.
Duthie really had filed a complaint with the AFL that he has slept with two players and caused pregnant. However, Riewoldt is not one of these two players. Meanwhile, investigations are conducted and then also doubted the truth of allegations Duthie.
He said the photo was taken by a teammate during a holiday in the U.S. last year and taken a few moments after he wakes up. “At that time I worried taken pictures and asked for my photo was deleted, and I suspect the photo was indeed been removed,” he said.
Riewoldt said he did not intentionally pose nude like that and call anyone who installed it as a photo absolutely rubbish and offensive. “People who do not have anything to do with my erusaha attacked me it was the cause of my miserable, my boyfriend, my family and my friends,” he said.
Women themselves have submitted a complaint to the AFL this year that she had conceived by one of two players who never slept with her, but not Riewoldt. But the investigation found no evidence that the players had to misbehave.
http://rudiyulianto.co.tv/kim-duthie-knocked-the-players-rugby-club-st-kilda-not-responsibility-nude-photo-spread-klup-players.html
You know what's ironic, these scum are employing the same tactics here and on Twitter- that they employ on teen girls: bullying, scare tactics, threats, violence and in gangs/mobs... isn't that ironic that you defend the very thing we are all against... with the thing you say the ST Kilda aren't guilty of?
So St Kilda aren't guilty of harassing, verbal abuse, verbal bashings, taunting, ridiculing, mental attacks, threats of violence... but you guys are?
Wow... way to stick up for a club and for your heroes in the exact same manner in which they share their social activities with Teen girls...
http://www.uncba.com/2010/12/st-kilda-school-girl-same-pack-mentality-meets-twitter-how-ironic/
@ Brenda.
Innocent footy guys? ur a a joke!
If they were at all bothered about being fair to their families why would they be posing about naked waving their dicks at each other, taking pics and saving them on their pc's.
Get real. Nick lied his head off about just getting out of bed blah blah..he was posing for an obscene pic. So what else has that tool lied about.
You're a fucking idiot!!...Such a sad, sad little girl...grow the fuck up for everyone's sake or ship off being a self proclaimed media martyr!
What I still can't understand is,
she says feels wronged by the club and the AFL, yet so has chosen to go after innocent players to get her 'revenge'.
http://www.3aw.com.au/displayPopUpPlayerAction.action?&url=http://media.mytalk.com.au/3AW/AUDIO/201210_Naked_Images_Scandal.mp3
Just because *some* AFL players do the wrong thing, does not mean *all* AFL players are fair game. What they do in their own private life is their private business.
Interesting radio interview.
http://www.fiveaa.com.au/audio_photo-scandal-girl-talks-to-amber-petty_100559
And here she is CLAIMING she took the photo, yet it's been proven that it wasn't taken by her.
http://www.fiveaa.com.au/audio_girl-involved-in-st-kilda-scandal-talks-on-fiveaa-sports-show_100556
Hilarious how she explains the reasons why they are denying she took them. lol
AND she also claims the pics are similar to the other hotel because it's a sister hotel, yet The Age reports the hotel has denied there being a sister hotel.
QUOTE:
"But the teenager claims there is a "sister hotel" in Melbourne that has exactly the same decor.
"Basically I am still telling the truth and I agree they do look massively similar, but if you guys actually checked, there is a hotel that is called the sister hotel of that one," she said in the video.
The Delano hotel in Miami Beach told The Age today it did not have a ‘‘sister hotel’’ in Melbourne."
/end quote
http://www.theage.com.au/afl/afl-news/nudepic-teen-in-afl-video-rant-20101222-19515.html?from=smh_ft
There comes a time, even for the most tolerant and understanding supporters of people in Kim's position, where they become somewhat tired of her starting cyber sites for support but not having the grace or need of the genuinely wounded but internet savvy child seeking support to bother to respond.
Even allowing for the significant difficulties Kim says she has experienced, it's not beyond her in a motel room paid for by others to offer a comment or two here while she's giving cyberspace a fair floggig elsewhere.
And for those about to jump in on how this represents those inclined to support her switching to believing the anti-Kim line: No, it doesn't. Those issues depend upon different facts.
But it does represent a severe disappointment with Kim seeking support wherever she can get it when, as with her opening and sole comment in this days old blog, she can't be bothered responding to or engaging with the people whose opinions she invited by starting the blog, but having no subsequent interest in it after pouring her heart out in her first and only comment.
There also comes a time when even the most tolerant and understanding people get pissed off with drama queens, of the internet or any other variety.
Which may be a great pity if they have genuine and unresolved greivances.
Now that she has mouthpieces like Catherine Deveny and Derryn Hinch wrapper around her little finger, she doesn't need to say much more...not that she really said much in the first place. This entire saga has been played out by her supporters, who continually fill in the blanks for us, yet she is not held accountable for the series of lies she has told. I really wonder how that is acceptable.
Oh thats right, because I don't agree, I must work for the Saints, therefore my questions posed a few days ago don't need to be answered.
Poor little girl (your words)...I hope it is appreciated by those you have hurt, so many, by your actions and words. From your family, to what appears to be theft of confidential data, from your reputation ..... it goes on, but at least you recognise yourself for what you are a little girl who finds that the 'real world' - as an adult has different rules to a child's world. I trust you find peace within yourself and then with others without too much heartbreak. I dont know the situation with your family but please consider making a heartfelt apology to your parents and listen to them when they give you advise. Once you are 18 you will and can be totally responsible for your own actions, but until then please seek their guidance. Take care and remember what you have posted in this blog, as it will be too easy to become defensive again. Love & Light especially for 2011.
If any MALE had done what this idiot girl has done he would now be sitting in a prison and called a pig of a man etc She has tried to blackmail people. Released pornographic photos and thren done the usual female sob story of being a "victim". You have clearly lied about several things and your attempts to scam money and get your two minutes of fame by sleeping around with footballers has back fired.
Disappear into wanna be land.
Test.
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